another week has passed.
and another week is coming.
and its going to be really busy and everything.
with physics spa and econs timed pract on monday plus co until NINE, which is freakingly late.
and maths lecture test on tues which i am definitely going to fail like some ass, followed by co sectionals.
co again on wed, even after the track and field meet. i bet i'll be dead by then.
thanks god there's a labour day on thursday when i can finally sleep in. but i bet, i'll be busy memorising for chem prespa the next day.
friday would be another long long day with chem prespa and co until uber late with rehearsals and all.
saturday will start super early and end super late, thanks to the co concert. after which, i would be FREE-ER!!!! oh man. looking forward to that man!!! heehee..
before reading on, if u are on a high note, kindly move on to the
'x' on the right hand corner. i wont want to be blamed for causing any trouble.
i am so confused in what i'm thinking now. it seems as though i am imagining things. i really dont know if i should feel frustrated, angry with myself or even, upset that things have come to this stage.
i just dont understand why is friendship so vulnerable. especially for me, i guess things are worse. my friendships are always problematic that i am beginning to feel that i am the cause of everything.
i guess that sometimes, when some things are done, nothing can be done to change this fact. and its probably impossible to just put it behind us. i would just have to be responsible for the consequences. no matter if i will feel even more upset of even, angry with myself, i would still have to accept it.
but so, there is nothing that i can do to make myself feel better or even, forget about it. i mean, who doesnt want to be ourselves, to always be happy and free without worrying about any other thing, just living the life that we want to live. who would wish to put up a false front and hide in our own shadows, and then only returning home and then hiding in a corner thinking about it? but i guess this is just part and parcel of our lives. and we have to put up with it, whether we like it or not. we cant possibly just let our emotions affect others without any rhyme or reason.
whatever.. friendship are complicated. sometimes, its just so difficult to find someone to confide in completely. its just difficult to open up and speak, no matter how much you want to.
thank goodness. i know that there will always be someone out there who will be on my side, though there is only a little, i believe that that the quantity doesnt matter. its actually the quality that doess matters. yup.. so people.. thanks!
